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| My Family |
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Lou Lou - Me!:::::::
Hubby - Long suffering husband :::::::
Princess - My almost 11 year old daughter :::::::
Beast Dog - My collie cross (who is anything but a beast! :::::::
Arum and Scarum - My folks::::::: Sis- My little sister who is taller than me!::::::: Scarlet - My bestest friend |
| Medically Me! |
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The two biggest medical events were in 1998 when I fractured my spine and in 2003 when I had a golf ball sized benign tumour removed from my breast.
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| Odd Me! |
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I broke my wrist trying to recreate Balero on roller skates, on my own... (twat):::::::
I'm very scared of mice, but cockroaches don't really bother me!(as much):::::::
I am a bit compulsive about washing my hands :::::::
I have Singstar rating singing "Heaven is a Place on Earth!"
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Under Construction! - More to come here!
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| Happy Fathers Day |
| Sunday, June 21, 2009 |
Happy Fathers Day you old bastard
I am so bloody angry at you still for leaving me
And yet I understand.
And I miss you
I broke down earlier in the week in a shop whilst buying a fathers day card for princess. I lost complete control. The assistants were crying by the time i had finished. I was mortified.
I have been over emotional this week, silly things have got to me, maybe its time, maybe I am finally ready. it is 6 months on wednesday.
In other news.....
Princess is currently performing a starring role in the new version of the exorcist! She has been horrible with the arrival of periods. I sadly acknowledge i have quite a few more years of this shit ahead.
I am back visiting the vets twice a week again...... skin broken on her leg, hopefully will have healed again by my next visit tomorrow.
thats about it
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| Monday, June 15, 2009 |
Despite the rain, I'm fairly upbeat. I am on an even keel.
My darling beast dog is well on the way to recovery now, her leg finally is fully covered in skin! She still has to wear a cast for a while for support though. The vet bills have been massive, as you would expect them to be for the state she was in.
She is walking proof that love heals.
(Thank you Daddy xxxx)
It's fathers day with weekend. I will buy a card i will not send. I will write with love i hope he feels, i will put it away in a drawer like my emotions, although right now i'm struggling to maintain my composure. God I miss him.
Princess is battling with pmt. She doesn't really understand why she is so volatile, hasn't learnt yet to control it.
I'm going to try and make a concerted effort to blog more, to be happier and not so bloody miserable!!!
Love to you all, and your Daddy's
L x |
| posted by Lou Lou @ 8:20:00 PM |
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| Saturday, May 30, 2009 |
i've had a few moments
moments that remind me how special life is
moments that remind me how much i miss dad
moments that make me feel so very lonely
moments that have made me laugh so hard i've cried
love l x |
| posted by Lou Lou @ 8:27:00 PM |
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| Wednesday, May 20, 2009 |
My life has been full of ups but mainly downs lately.
It's been hard to vent, maybe I'm scared of what will happen when I do....
On Saturday, it will be the 5 month anniversary of losing my Daddy, and yes, I still call him Daddy, he was always my Daddy and him going off and leaving me will not change that. even though I am still angry at him right now. I think that's maybe why I haven't grieved as I should have, I have not even touched the surface.
I always felt i would drown in my tears, in the last 5 months I couldn't have filled a cup, let alone a bucket!
Hot on the heals of losing Daddy, I lost my darling magical man, my Grandad. A brave holder of the Burma Star. A wonderful man who made everyone around him feel warm and loved. he gave the best hugs.
Then my beast dog, she got hit by that car. She was so smashed up, and it wasn't looking good.
Love and miracles happen.
Watched over by my Daddy and Grandad, Beast Dog has had an amazing, but very expensive recovery which is not over yet!
We were looking a few weeks back at possible amputation still if the skin grafts failed again. We were looking at pinning if the skin grafts didn't.
Xrays just a week ago taken showed something amazing. Her leg, it's healing itself. The skin has almost all grown back and there is only a few cms left where there is only flesh showing. her joint which was smashed completely has healed and looks almost perfect now on the xrays!
Finally something good has happened!
warmest wishes to you all
L
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| posted by Lou Lou @ 6:41:00 PM |
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| Thank you for the birthday gift Daddy! |
| Saturday, April 11, 2009 |
Happy Birthday Daddy
It was Dad's birthday today. The first he wasn't with us, the first I couldn't pick up the phone to sing to him.
It was also the day my Mum chose to say goodbye again, after a short personal reflection Daddy's ashes were placed under the turf at my brothers grave.
I still feel Dad around, I still talk to him. He has been here, and on today, his birthday he gave me a gift.
My darling Beast Dog.
I never saw it coming, it was a complete surprise, especially after the conversations I have had this week with the vet. We went this morning for our visit. We have been allowed to visit her since Monday!!! Only short times with a little walk as it keeps her calmer.
Anyways
Basically she is home with us!!! I have to take her back for dressing changes, and she will have to go back for further treatment and stay a while, but for now she is with me!
So, here's the low down.
The skin graft hasn't taken. She will need to have another one shortly. If it doesn't take she will have to have her leg amputated. If it does they are going to insert metal rods to maintain stability of the joint. The amputation sounds pretty extreme, but right now she has a big hole in her leg.
So she is home. We will fix her with love!
Finally some happy news in my life!!!
Love
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| posted by Lou Lou @ 9:34:00 PM |
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| happy birthday! |
| Friday, April 03, 2009 |
Happy Birthday Stop! It went past and I forgot all about it, what with all the drama in my life!
There has been more drama.
Yeah I know I can hardly believe it either.
Just how many of those bad luck if you do not forward to at least a million people have i deleted to deserve all this pain?
So, to recap.
Daddy - Christmas Eve
Grandad - 11 weeks later
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Beast Dog - 12 weeks later, although she is still with us, just not at home.
Beast dog is at the vets. She got hit by a car almost 2 weeks ago. She is still at the vets. They operated for 3 hours, 3 surgeons to try and save her leg.
Waiting for news tonight on skin graft, apparently it is not taking too well. Still too early to tell about her leg.
We are not even allowed to see her as she is not allowed to get excited.
So my life is pretty full of drama. I am slightly sick of people asking me how i am.
Guess what
I'm in pain
Outwardly i do not show it, but inside i'm screaming what have i done?
why is this happening?
it's all too much
So i smile and say i'm fine, and yes there is a lot of drama right now, but i'll be ok
and i will
i am stronger than i ever knew i was
bless you all
love
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| posted by Lou Lou @ 5:46:00 PM |
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| tears of my heart |
| Sunday, March 15, 2009 |
i lost another family member today.
Rest in peace my darling Grandad
Love you
l x |
| posted by Lou Lou @ 3:07:00 PM |
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